Here we are... February 2012... exciting right??!!! My little Violetta is 4 months old now and she is growing... and growing fast!
I see her as my little sage. She cries just at the perfect moments when I need to learn patience and am probably in my head and needed an interruption to get grounded. She only sleeps for 10 to 20 minutes at a time during the day- just enough time to get my priorities done (10 minutes at a time) and not procrastinate. She sometimes cries, looking straight into my eyes, as if she's asking for something from me but I don't know what it is... and this is when trust is the answer, I have no other option. Maybe a little hint of panic or fear will sneak in to my being for a second but as soon as I recognize it, i dont deny it or try to suppress it. I trust that I will find the answer I need for this situation to pass quickly. If this difficulty doesn't pass, I trust that I will be brave enough to deal with whatever may come. I can almost feel the oxcytocin rise within me with a fierceness ready to fight for my baby girl.Raising a little infant isn't the difficult part, its learning how to take full responsibility for your actions and emotions. I tell myself: How you do anything is how you do everything. Do we really beleive babies cry on purpose to irritate us? Are they little manipulators trying to stop us from getting things done or being happy? Of course not! If my reaction is anything other than compassion for my little crying Vio, it wouldn't match with what I truly believe. I've been learning to step out out of victim mode in EVERY area of my life and this takes daily practice. It is a delicate balance between realizing what you have control of (our reaction), recognizing what is most important (folding laundry or comforting a human being?) and allowing wisdom to present itself out of every challenge. Our children, other people's children, every relationship and situation, whether challenging or easy, is an opportunity for growth- either through self-reflection, gratitude or both! Whatever angry, beautiful, or disastrous our action or reaction is... actually, let me ask you... Do you believe the saying "How you do ANYTHING is how you do EVERYTHING???" Im curious to know what you think! Let me know if you agree or disagree. Leave a comment or let me know on facebook!